Happy-clappy, smiley, cheesy Christianity has always annoyed me. Those who always try to paint a positive picture, or offer some cheesy Christian line as an answer to any problem. Or the worst line you can hear when you suffer “God uses everything for good” – which might well be true (in fact, I know it is from experience), but in the midst of our dark days it’s not what we want or need to hear
Truth is, God doesn’t always heal people. He doesn’t resolve every problem. And sometimes it feels like He’s not just at all. Try telling the pastor who with his wife prayed and raised someone from the dead and in the next year saw his wife get fatal cancer which killed her within 3 months that God is just.
Yet some Christians want to act like it’s all okay, when we all know it’s not.
This is one of the biggest problems people have with the Christian church. Because everyone knows this world isn’t perfect. It’s not all happy ever after. It’s not all simple, easy and wonderful all the time. Life is unfair, it’s unjust, and we have no idea why. And it just doesn’t equate to a God who we are told is full of unconditional love, and is perfectly just.
I believe God exists. I know He does. I’ve heard from Him, I’ve had intimacy with Him, He’s blessed me in lots of ways, and when I’ve experienced true grace – the grace that exposes the truth of who you are and tells you you’re loved unconditionally anyway – then I’ve been humbled, overwhelmed and known true joy. Only yesterday I commented on Facebook on how much I feel God has given me, how amazing His grace is. And I know this.
But then you have bad days.
In these moments everything seems to overwhelm you. One thing happens, then another, then another, and it makes no sense. You don’t understand why one moment God is being amazing, and then another just everything and anything which can go wrong, does. And all your insecurities, fears and ultimately the truth of what you really feel is exposed. And it’s not nice to hear.
We want to run away and hide from these feelings, these thoughts, because they aren’t palatable to us and maybe because we know in our mind they aren’t actually the truth, or grounded in truth. But it doesn’t change the fact they exist. You can know God is perfectly loving, just, good and gracious – yet in the next breath feel like God hates your guts, that He is turning all His attack dogs on you, and you even say you hate Him right now.
Yes, hate. I don’t use that word lightly here. I have had moments I truly hated God. Because when you are angry, when hurt and bitterness engulf you, it’s easy to feel a moment of hatred.
But at the same time, in those very moments, I still loved Him. I still love Him now.
I’ve loved Him for who He is, for what He’s done, for what I know is fundamentally true about Him. But I’ve hated Him because I don’t understand what He’s doing in my life and why He’s doing it. Why He allows certain events or circumstances from my past to occur.
In the end, there is one thing I cannot disavow. Jesus is true. He is real. He is exactly who He said He is. Whether I believe it or not, He does love me just like He says He does. And in comparison to a large number of people in the world, I’m very blessed.
That doesn’t lessen any hurt, anger, bitterness, or hatred I feel towards Him, or invalidate it. It doesn’t answer all the questions I have – and maybe I’ll never know all the answers. None of us will.
I’ve been through my fair share of suffering, and it left deep scars, which I know haven’t fully healed. So I just have to keep being honest with God, and with myself. Not hide from my darkness, from the words I don’t want to speak but which I do feel, but acknowledge them. Because it’s only through honest interaction with God that I’ll be able to sift the truth from the lies, and that those scars can eventually, over time, be healed.
So be honest with yourself about how you feel. Don’t hide or run away. And be honest with God too.
Because despite appearances, He is who He says He is. And after all, it’s not like He doesn’t know already.
Have you ever questioned God?
Do you sometimes hate God even though you love Him?
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James, my last few days have been rough ones for me with my seizures, so I totally get what you are saying. I had a seizure that made me miss my bus so my kids missed some trick or treating time. I had a seizure and fell on my already-sore shoulder, so I can barely move it right now without pain. I had another and fell on the other side of my body, so I am even more achy. Where is God? If He’s so awesome and so into healing, why have the last five days been so crappy?
Yeah, I’ve loved and hated God at the same time. I know He is good, and He is my only hope. But some days it just doesn’t seem enough.
Great comment Chris, and totally agree and really resonate. Thanks for sharing this with us, and I totally appreciate what you’re going through and the questions this raises. Thanks again.
I love this post, awesome. I so relate.
Thanks Pilar!
I can’t go with the hate God part but certainly have experience with being angry with God. I don’t try to hide my anger from Him, like you said, he already knows. I tend to wallow around in my anger for a while before getting over myself and offering my hurt up to God to sort out. Like you, I have issues with those smiley-cheesey people. I have met a few who are genuinely real and I admire them but for the most part, they are pretending. I prefer honesty.
Yes, I prefer honesty too. I explained the hate part in my comments to Shelley – basically, I think there is a place for it, and I’ve experienced it, even just for fleeting moments, yet I’ve still always loved God. Thanks for your comment, appreciate it!
I can’t go with the hate God part but certainly have experience with being angry with God. I don’t try to hide my anger from Him, like you said, he already knows. I tend to wallow around in my anger for a while before getting over myself and offering my hurt up to God to sort out. Like you, I have issues with those smiley-cheesey people. I have met a few who are genuinely real and I admire them but for the most part, they are pretending. I prefer honesty.
I can’t understand the concept of hating God when as a born-again believer, the spirit of God indwells in me. I may not necessarily like the outcome of a situation, but hate God? Never. Getting angry with God is nothing more than saying you don’t like the way He is running your life. I see it as a spiritual stomping your feet because you didn’t get your way. I’m not saying we’ve not all been there, but there comes a time when spiritual maturity should kick in and move us to another level.
Shelley, I get your point completely. I consider myself to be a mature Christian, and I don’t consider the word hatred I used here to be used lightly, and I also don’t see it as merely stamping your feet. I do agree spiritual stomping of the feet isn’t healthy or mature. It still happens, but what I’m trying to talk about is slightly different.
When you really suffer and you don’t understand why, when you lose a loved one to cancer, or a parent dies young (in my case), you want to know why. You want answers. You don’t get why a loving God allows you to go through such agony. And no platitudes are going to make any difference – not about how much Jesus suffered, not Bible verses, anything.
And in that moment you may still know the truth of Jesus and love Him for that, and because of your relationship with Him – but you may also find you hate Him, because He allowed it to happen and you have no idea why and He won’t tell you why, and you’re just meant to accept it? Happy-clappy smiley Christianity says you should, but I don’t think Jesus wants us to do that. He wants relationship, which means honest dialogue. I’ve heard married couples say they have moments hate each other even though they love each other, and you can love someone and still have moments where you despise them and feel like they are just not worth your time.
No matter how mature a Christian, we all can feel deep hurt, bitterness, anger and yes, even hatred toward God – even more so maybe because we love Him, because we know He is true. If I wasn’t a Christian or I didn’t think God was who He said He was I wouldn’t hate God, I couldn’t. It’s often the biggest love which can cause the biggest hate.
I respect your opinion and in many ways agree with it, but I do think there is a place for hatred sometimes. I know I have had moments I have hated God. They didn’t last long, and God has been gracious. But they did happen.
I’ve lost loved ones, but had the comfort of knowing they were in His presence. Scripture tells us we are to expect trials and tribulations. God brings us through the fire, not necessarily out. We are here for His glory. Hurt and pain is real. It isn’t until the trial is over that we can see God’s purpose. Again, hatred for the situation and the pain of enduring is understandable. For God, no.
When I lost my Mum I had the comfort of knowing she was with God – I still do. I accept what scripture says completely, and all you share about God and why we’re here, about hurt and pain and it all for God’s purpose – I agree with completely.
Why is hatred for God so misunderstandable? I think if we know who God is and what He’s capable of, then when we or those we love suffer the most horrendous and unjust things and we know God could have acted to stop it but didn’t, then it’s perfectly natural to feel anger and even hatred.
Does it mean God isn’t real or true? Of course not. I love God and nothing will ever change that, and I know the truth of His love, grace, mercy and forgiveness, and have experienced it. I know the facts about who God is and know He’s real and true. Nothing can convince me otherwise.
But it doesn’t mean I don’t have occasional moments where I feel hatred toward God for what has happened. This fades because I know the truth, and I have learned to be honest with God and myself about my feelings and have a healthy perspective – but nevertheless it’s real.
Hatred lasts often only a moment, unless we allow it to consume us – and usually, when we know who God is, that doesn’t happen. But hatred of God can happen and it’s not that unusual to me.
Guess we’ll just agree to differ here Shelley – I do completely agree with much of what you say, and there’s a lot of wisdom in your comments, it’s just on the part about hate i disagree.
Perhaps you’d be more in support of Job’s wife than Job, himself.
Maybe you should read Job again because it’s more than obvious than you did not understand Job’s cries and what they expressed.
Read Martha Kilpatrick’s Loving God series. You can find her online. In her book Chariot of Fire she talks about having a buried hatred of God. Some people aren’t even aware or recognize they hate Him. I’ve just come to that conclusion for myself – that I hate God. And through Mrs. Kilpatrick’s teachings in her loving God series I’ve learned through repentance – honest repentance – we can experience God’s love. So you’re on to something when you talk about hating God. And I believe you said something about being honest. I’m also learning that we have to be honest with Him. Many times we go to Him but we’re not honest. I believe she has the key in her booklet series Loving God. And the key is repentance, but it’s a process. It’s not a one-time repentance. So if you’re interested any further read her series Loving God.
I can’t understand the concept of hating God when as a born-again believer, the spirit of God indwells in me. I may not necessarily like the outcome of a situation, but hate God? Never. Getting angry with God is nothing more than saying you don’t like the way He is running your life. I see it as a spiritual stomping your feet because you didn’t get your way. I’m not saying we’ve not all been there, but there comes a time when spiritual maturity should kick in and move us to another level.
James,
I remember having a miscarriage in my 11th week of pregnancy. And when I was seen by the doctor he thought I still had the baby in me so for another two weeks I had hope I was still going to deliver a baby. When the ultrasound revealed there was no longer a baby i went through a myriad of feelings. Disappointment turned to resentment which became full blown bitterness. When I was in that place I would say I was hating God. You wouldn’t have heard me admit it. I was too busy quoting verses to the Pastor who came to visit me in the hospital. I remember a Christian chaplain who met me and his first words to me were, “I sense within you a rage.”
My response was, “You got that right.”
I think you will find few christians who will admit they ever hated God, and maybe some never have. For me, I just ignored him for a while. After all, I didn’t think I could trust Him.
But that was a time in my past. As I’ve grown I see that there are times of silence and it’s not that God doesn’t love me in those times, but instead that he is stretching me. Do I like it? In a word NO. But I trust in who He is, not in what I feel.
I do understand what you are trying to say. When people have been hurt deeply when they are young and impressionable it takes a long time to work through things.
I don’t hate God now and yet I’ve had people tell me they are surprised that I love God when so many negative things have happened to me. The answer. He took a sinful, self-righteous, proud young woman and though I didn’t deserve it, he saved me. I don’t like everything he has allowed in my life. Jesus didn’t either. But I am determined to trust him. And I don’t consider myself a happy, surface christian. Just a forgiven one.
I don’t consider you a happy, surface Christian either – your faith has always come across deeper than that. Hate may only last a short time – in my case it did. But love is a lot deeper and lasts a lot longer. I think more Christians have hated God than would ever care to admit.
Great comment, really appreciate your honesty Anne.
James, I completely understand what you are saying. In my case, I’m not certain I would use the word hate, but I’ve certainly been angry with God many, many time. And I agree, the “happy happy cheesy Christianity” bothers me. Here in America there is a movement known as “word of faith”. These folks proclaim “if you have enough faith, then…” Others will say that negative words spoken will bring about curses, so think positive so that nothing bad will happen.
Well, guess what? Stuff happens. Folks get cancer. Some are healed, others aren’t. (I’m not sure if you saw my post on Chris’s site a couple of weeks ago on the subject of “having enough faith.”. Recently a friend of mine lost her 4 year old granddaughter to a rare form of cancer. This family has a strong legacy of faith. They have served with YWAM, one of the great grandfathers is a retire minister, the other was the late Zig Ziglar. Yes, they have faith, but Phoebe wasn’t healed (in this life.)
Well, I’m getting off the subject a bit, but yes, we do get angry with God. We do have times when we question Him. And many may hate Him momentarily. Yet when we don’t understand, we can take comfort in knowing He is sovereign. Sometimes that’s all we have to hold on to.
Thank you for your transparency in this post.
Great comment Joan, glad the post resonated with you and I’m not the only one who detests ‘happy cheesy Christianity’. Thanks again for the comment, and for the encouragement too.
We may not admit what we feel to God but we should. He knows our hearts. He knows us through and through. He can handle it even if we hate him, even if we say that also. No matter what we do God doesn’t love us more or less. He loves us period, no exceptions. None. Suffering just plain sucks. Not sure why we have to suffer. When we hear “well done good and faithful servant” I’m sure whatever we suffered won’t matter.
I agree with that Troy, God can handle whatever we throw at Him, and loves us anyway. At least we have that hope in the midst of suffering. Great comment, thanks Troy.
Great post James… it paints a clear picture of the ever raw ever real-ness of our human emotions… which we were created with! So thought provoking! Thanks!
Thanks Lisa Jey, appreciate your encouragement.
Beautifully raw post James. I can understand what you say and how easy it is to have a love/heat relationship with God, but, I cannot say I experience it, not in the worst hardships ol my life. Not when my father died in his early 60s, not when my 19 year old brother fell fro a 3rd floor window and spent a year in the hospital, not when my sister died at the age of 45 and left a little girl, not when I miscarried my first baby or my grandchild had to be aborted at 7 months old, when I could not walk at the age of 40 and had 2 total hip replacement and 2 revisions in 15 years, not now that my family is in a turmoil worse than anything else.
As a matter a fact, I trust him to see us through more than ever.
Blessings friend!
Thanks for your comment Katina, glad the post resonated with you & you agree. We’ve all been through those dark moments, and we need to acknowledge it. Thanks again!
James, this is quite good. There’s almost a psalmic quality to your post. I think you get at what God is after: He wants us to be real with Him where we’re at. Sort of like David in the Psalms. He wants real–and not religious.
Well done!
Thanks for this comment – deeply moving to hear the comparison to Psalms, that’s truly humbling, thank you. And I agree God wants real, not religious.
Unfortunately, as I have come to terms with the truth. Without the bad, there can be no good. For good can’t exist unless it is compared to bad. Opposites. Male/female. Yes/no. Good/bad. God/Satan. It is the balance and the scale is constantly in movement. I know that God will usually tip the scale in my favor, more good than bad, but sometimes I question it. That is the nature of the beast. We’re weak. Good post.
Interesting thoughts Bob. I agree we are weak, but I believe good can exist without evil, but true love always necessitates freedom to choose evil. But agree, we are weak in many ways. Thanks for commenting Bob.
I have not “hated” God, but been lost on his purposes. I bet he is cheering today to read His son being frank and transparent here
I hope so, we’ve always had an open and frank relationship – I much prefer it that way too, even though it’s often more difficult. Thanks Christa.
Great post, James, and a really refreshing read. I’m so happy to hear someone speak candidly like this and reflect some of my own feelings. Thanks for your honesty 🙂 I too have been deeply frustrated and even hurt by ‘super happy and everything is perfect’ Christians who have made light of my problems, preached at me and made me feel small, and been in no way sympathetic or loving. Quick to judge, not so quick to provide the support and help I needed. This is not helpful, and for me not even Christian. It’s not what Jesus did at all. But there are also some genuinely great Christians out there, and in recent years I’ve met some :-). You come to know who you can open up to I find; those people who will genuinely provide good help and support. But we must have grace and forgiveness for the others too.
It’s true that, sometimes, life sucks. Even with Jesus, life still can suck. It can be hard. Sometimes, it can be harder as a believer! But you’re right that the key thing is to remember that God does love us. He always will love us, and that never changes. We may feel upset at God, or not understand, but we must always hold on and not let go of the unchanging fact of God’s love. And this is something I really have started to grasp of late. It doesn’t remove pain or suffering, it doesn’t stop life sucking at times, but it does make it easier and remind us we have a bigger, better calling and future with our King. As you say, we must be honest with God and ourselves, and with other Christians. Being fake and super happy all the time is no benefit to anyone. God wants followers who are real people, not players masquerading behind masks 🙂
Thanks for the comment and the kind words Andrew, really appreciate it. I always prefer to be honest, I think we need to be more honest about what we believe and why, and who we are. Great comment and totally agree, thanks Andrew!
thank you for being real…..all the cheesy sayings some Christians come up with are about as spiritually nutritious as a burned bowl of mac and cheese is for the body!!!
Wow. Hate just seems like an awfully strong word. I can’t imagine ever hating God. Now I don’t agree with people that teach a prosperity gospel. I believe that bad things can and do happen to good people. I don’t always understand why God allows some of the things to happen. What I do know is that no matter how I feel toward God, He will always love me.
“Herein is love, not that we love God, but that He loved us and gave Himself to be the propitiation for our sins.” – 1 John 4:10
Sorry for the delayed response – I know hate is a strong word, without doubt. And I’m not saying I hate God all the time, rather there are moments where I feel hatred towards Him. I don’t stop loving God, but it’s almost because of this I feel such anger, and yes, hatred towards Him occasionally. And I believe His grace is enough for this. Interesting points Anastacia, and good to hear an alternative point of view.
Yes to all questions at the end of your post! Love this, such honesty and reassuring to know it’s not just me who feels that way sometimes.
Thanks Mandy, glad the post resonated with you – it’s good to know we aren’t alone. Really glad it encouraged you.
I’ve felt hateful toward God too at times and still do. I’ve also wondered why some Christians seem to live such ‘blessed’ lives and others go through hell. I don’t expect Him to give me all the answers but it doesn’t stop me asking me again and again. Thanks for this blog James. Gb
You’re welcome Kieran – sorry for the majorly delayed response. Good to know I’m not alone in this journey, and glad this post has been helpful.
Good article. We don’t know what he’s doing at times. Seems like he goes against his word. I’ve had days, with seething anger telling him I hated him so much and meant it. I know Jesus is real. We’ve had miracles. He raised my son from the dead thru me and etc. I love him and hate him at times. Gone more than 6 months feeling like it’s pointless to pray. Threw all my Jesus pics away & got rid of my bibles. There’s nothing 2 say still . Even talking about my disappointment is pointless. It’s just good to hear someone else say they felt the same.
Hi SherCare, thanks for sharing your story so honestly. I totally resonate with what you’ve shared, and I truly hope you come through it closer to God. It’s always difficult I think, even in ‘good’ times, because we’re human, and because it’s a relationship. So glad I was able to encourage you and remind you you’re not alone. Thanks again for your comment.
I really hate him because he never gave me a wife and family that he gave to so many others. Then again most women these days are very Pathetic to meet.
When I was much much younger,I would have scoffed at a discussion like this.But those days are over.I have grown to appreciate topics like this,because there are outlets to our real feelings.We are not always going to follow God with blind faith.And sometimes we curse/swear at him,even though we do not readily admit it.You are right on point.I do feel this way right now,and every single day for years now.God has “Sicced” all of his attacks dogs on me, from every which way,and I do feel as if he does hate my guts,day in and day out.Yes you can hate God,and Love/Respect and Appreciate him all at the same time.Thanks for the forum.
All i ever wanted from God was a wife and family that he gave to so many others which would’ve made a lot of sense for me to have as well. Much better than being single and all alone now, and i really do hate the holidays too. For many of you that have what i Don’t have, be very thankful.
If you love God he will give You what your want.He made us to have a relationship with him. He wont tell you to do anything bad.
Jesus: The name of the game is “Feed the Beast!”
Jezebel: Oh no, not that again. That is all you ever want to play, Jesus.
Jesus: It’s my Universe and that’s what I want to play!
Buddah: Okay, I’m in. I already fucked my daughter and raped my sister today so my afternoon is clear.
Jesus: How many gods did you bring?
Buddah: I could only fit a couple million in my fannypack.
Mohammad: I’m in too. I already had some little boys suck my dick and I have several million sand niggers ready to blow you shit up.
Jesus: You guys get set up. I see an opportunity here to do what I truely love most. I am going to sneak away real quick and stare at some little girls vaginas while I fuck the shit out of my hand. No one tell my wife.
Mohammad: You just did that!
Jesus: I have to fuck both my hands to keep them equal.
Mohammad: Well hurry up. I don’t want to get stuck fucking Buddah in the ass if there isn’t any damn women to rape around here in a minute.
Buddah: Okay, I’m setting up my gods now. They’re not worth shit but I have a ton of them.
Jezebel: Okay, when your Christians quit pulling my clothes off and ejaculating in my face I wil play too.
Jesus: Okay, I’m back. And I prayed real quick so I am forgiven and better than you still.
Jezebel: What is wrong with your wifes vagina?
Jesus: It’s all ugly and stretched out from baring my children. I like little clean shaven pussies because it makes me feel like my dick is bigger and I get to have a better ejaculation. Which means I cum more, all over the place really. Any place is potentially a great place to escape into my own little fantasy world and pretend to ejaculate deep inside the ass or snatch of some little precious child of God. Everybody ready to play?
Jezebel: Wait. Can I tell you guys something?
Mohammad: Okay
Buddha: Sure.
Jezebel: Sometimes I dream that I have a good Father out there somewhere who is doing everything in His power to rescue me.
Jesus: That’s ridiculous. You’re a cumbucket. You are here to tempt me with your fine ass so I can get off and abuse you everyway possible until I go to Heaven and you burn in hell for all eternity for not believing in me.
Jezebel: …I imagine He is kind and gentle and trustworthy, because He is battlescarred. I imagine He would do anything, including burning in hell for all eternity just to be with me.
Jesus: You’re a Goddamn witch!
Jezebel: I imagine He is pretty lit up.
Jesus: It’s all about me me me!
Jezebel: I imagine he is about as pissed off as any living breathing being could possibly be.
Jesus: You need to read your Bible. Me good, you bad. End of story.
Jezebel: Are you guys going to let me finish the game before you rape me and burn me at the stake?
Jesus: I don’t know. It is one of my favorite activities, and all I need is a gang of forgiven Christians behind me with my perfect Bible.
Mohammad: How many troops did you bring Jesus?
Jesus: I have a bunch of trailor trash and niggers and a bunch of people with their heads up their ass’s.
Buddah: I brought my rape gangs also. And an entire class of people who are better than all of us because they rape their sisters and daughters in nicer houses.
Jesus: Yes, I also brought my Catholics. They believe they need to breed like goddamn rabbits because they are just so goddamn special. Because they worship my ditsy ho bitch mom.
Mohammad: I noticed all your characters have vaginas, even the boys.
Jesus: That is to make it an easy bloodbath for your badass sandniggers.
I just want to see alot of blood. I slaughter millions of babies a year before they even get born, but because I am the most special king of kings, it is all set up so I don’t get to actually watch it, even though I am paying for it. It is bullshit. The Bible wants me to just feel good about myself no matter what, bottom line. All I want to do is kill children so they don’t stretch out my favorite vaginas.
I sacrafic family, country, and God; to cum really good.
Mohammad: Wow, your guys are really complicated. My guys just want to saw your heads off with rusty knives.
Jesus: Bring it on bitch! My vagina men are ready and waiting to escort their wives and children to the slaughterhouse! But please don’t bother them when they are watching tv, or they will not even know what’s happening and we won’t get to see the looks on their faces when your sandniggers are balls deep in their daughters while slitting their throughts. They would rather believe and teach doctrine which not only allows them to be cowards, but requires it. How convenient huh?
They get to be the squishy soulless cowards they must really want to be, and go to their deaths believing that they are going to a special happy place in the sky reserved just for them. So come and get them sandniggers!
Mohammad: We will after we fuck some more little boys in the mouth. Then we are going to kill us some Goddamn faggots.
Jesus: Yeah, those faggots are going to burn in hell. If they are not interested in destroying woman every imaginable way then I cannot relate, and they are not welcome in my Heaven. It is about time for some witch hunting! I am feeling extra forgiven and righteous! Those little fucking abused girls are the real problem here. They are just not content with the status quo. If they would just shut up and be good little fuckholes, then when I sing at church I could feel more warm and fuzzy. And get that great big hug from God. He loves me so much. I am so very special to Him. Can you tell?
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…are you getting a negative vibe from these gods, or is it just me? Honesty, this is a side job for me. I am not a professional godsmith, but it seems I am the only one who payed attention in class. Before you kicked me out that is.
Grant Jonathan Sanford, king
The more i know about god(Allah) the more i’m beginning to hate him, why abuse of the power to be god, discriminate people is a crime, twice i heard him accuse me of killing 2 people, i never need anything from god and when i did he let me down so i will let him down in doing the thing that would please me, god is selfish wicked and has some evil idea of what is right for man.
This may sound crazy from your point of view, but i heard god more than once i went self employed, but because it wasn’t what he want me to do he stop it, so do your will yourself god, because if you think that you can push people around and get away with it then think again your wrong you have no right to abuse people human right, yes people do abuse their human rights, but you abuse my right, so why should i pray to someone who lies and play around with people life, god you need to change your way, but you won’t and i will not stop been me if you don’t like who i am then send me to hell, but you can’t stop me from living my life the way i want to you didn’t give me life i own my mother and father thanks for that, i owe god nothing never have and never will you are selfish and self-centred what is the point of been human if you can’t live your life the way you want to live it why do i have to live, by god law. if i’m doing good then that good for me, but if i do evil then that my soul fault, you bring evil into people live, by making their life hard for your mistake.
God is selfish and wicked i’ve never need him, he need me, when you need me to do your will then respect me as a human being, but you have no manner or respect toward humanity so i have no respect to you as a god you are very selfish.
i’m not scared of speaking my mind about god for i see every kind of wickedness in his mind, i now know where he is and i now know that he can lie for his needs, i just can’t understand how wicked his mind is, when you can see pass god and you know where he is then and the fact that he need you to please him, is where life is wrong, he gave use freewill so he must respect our freedom of choose and our freedom of our working life, i love the point in the bible when Jesus said use your freedom to good not evil i did but his evil wins so why should i try good again god is wicked and has every kind of ill manned way of treating people.
The only thing that upset me is how Jesus has to come to a world twice to kill the anti christ, what the point of the anti christ anyway why did god make an anti christ in the first place? for god has every kind of evil in his mind.
The point that he said he could get me to do anything that would please him is the point, i don’t have to please him that a choose that i have to make, i have the right to work for what i wanted selfishness
God has every kind of evil planned in his mind i’m not saying they is not evil in the world, but you are planning people life, life not a joke, children are suffering, by your need to be wicked and enslave people into torment, judgment starts when you stop lying to people about life, you evil god.
Well the way this world is going now with all the misery, sickness, murders, i do have to say that i really hate God for this since he is a very powerful man that really should do something about this before it gets much worse. When will we ever be at Peace?
Exactly! If He’s supposed to be all-powerful, then why is evil winning?
Because this world is ruled by the Prince of air, Satan. A new cosmos will come free of it, and it will all happen be for the last of the spritually alive are dead spiritually. Evil is a jealous ex who is kicking and screaming and tearing the other persons life apart if it can and bringing everyone down with, them. Those who come to know God and receive his blessing by faith are lifted up.
Well that is certainly very hard to explain.
It has mostly to do with feeling betrayed by God, being disappointed in him. SuperChristians wrongfully think it’s a lack of faith to feel such strong negative feelings towards God. Au contraire, it’s trusting and believing so much in his word, his promises, waiting for years to see them come through and being let down. In the meantime, you’re even ridiculed for your faith or persecuted.
With everything happening to our brethren of Syria and Iraq, I very often remind my SuperChristians friends that they should be more cautious before spouting platitudes, when it comes to suffering. It’s the same people who would swear like Peter: ” I’ll never forsake you, my lord”, yeah right! An Iraqi or Syrian Christian fleeing ISIS, doesn’t have the luxury to appear super pious by affirming things to scorepoints with God. The person has to be real about his faith, has to be real with God because his life is really threatened: we aren’t talking about something hypothetical. Most people whose faith has never truly been tested, try to make us think that they’d never ever get mad at God or even hate him, for 30s. Some, with selective memory and a propensity to bury their feelings deep down, would say that it never happened when they were in the woes of suffering. Yeah, right; keep trying to score points with God by lying to yourself! Honesty’s always the best policy, especially with God. You can’t fool the man so humble yourself and tell the truth.
Thank you for your honesty,which I am sure has caused some holier than though “Christians” to codemn you already. I am very angry at God. I have followed His will, admittedly imperfectly, as a (hugely) imperfect person would do. I forgave others who back stabbed me, and then, Heaven help me, I helped these same back stabbers when later THEY were the ones in distress. I can already hear the “christians” saying, well that is humanity’s fault not God’s, and this is surely true. What is NOT right, however, is God leaving me with ZERO evidence of His love and protection for me. Had I received so much as a spiritual “ATTABOY!” I probably wouldn’t be angry. But nada. This is wrong, and i cannot reconcile a loving God with this situation, and it is the type of situation I have experienced from as far back as I can remember. Surely, I could just back off of what I see as my duty to others, Christians, bad guys (sometime they’re the same!) but when I try, I find my desire to help overwhelming the desire to say, “Screw ’em, when I needed help they were nowhere.” But I don’t do this, as I don’t seem to have the unction to, or maybe I am just that dumb. I find myself needing to ditch God or ditch doing His will, and doing one is really the same as doing the other. The only solution as I see it is to just slowly pull back from Him, until my foolish sense of needing to do right diminishes. I know this: I simply cannot continue trying to be a good Christian, as the results are just too devastating, especially the silence from God. And, lest you think this above is not all that bad, here’s another. When I was a teenager, a guy caused my brother’s death, and he has yet to even do so much as say he is sorry to me, or any member of my family. And, get this: he subsequently became a pastor in the E Free church, and he STILL hasn’t said so much as, “I’m sorry.” Good grief.
If that pastor doesnt repent for what he did to your family and you he will get what he deserves. Dont give up on God because of him. Also Dont give because of fake Christians they are like the pharisees in the bible. If you pay attention jesus said they going to go to hell. He didnt exactly say hell but that what he met. God is love if they hate you they hate god they supposed to treat everybody right. Plus you can have power over satan so even if God allowed it you can defeat him with Gods help.in jesus name try it it work for me i seen bad stuff happen to fake Christians after i prayed. Research it. And they wonder why people hate god no love from so called christians. God is love he punish those who do wrong who are supoposed to be Christians not just non believers.
I had a wonderful daughter. She had a massive stroke at age 28 it’s a true miracle she lived. But now she is paralyzed on the left side and has extensive brain damage. The last 3 years have been hell on earth to be honest. There have been lots of good things mixed in along the way. But now there is nothing else we can do. Now I live every day of my life takeing care of her. She doesn’t make sense a lot of the time. Says hurtfull things. Self centered. Lots of cognitive issues. If she’s talking and she talks a lot its hurtfull thing’s. Im a human being. Im being terrorized in my house while giving my everything to one who is terrorizing me. Because of a brain injury. Talk about sacrificial love. I know it’s not her fault and this happened to her. There are just no words and not enough space to voice everything. But im so hurt so beyond broken. I need god to help us at least enough to be able to life a more functional life.I love god. I know he is with us. But right now I hate him and I want to die. Seems like the devil wins he took my daughter and gave us a life of hell on earth. Brain damage is the worst injury a person can have.
Paula, I am truly so sorry for what has happened. I cannot even begin to appreciate the pain you are going through. I had a close relative get brain damage which effected their daily life – but not to this scale. I know you are hurting. I just ask you don’t give up on life. Keep going. I am praying for you and sending lots of love, for whatever it’s worth. You’re not alone.
God bless you paula, hang in there. I know it’s not easy.
Can we get off the unconditional love train? To love is to care deeply about the condition of the other person. If your love is unconditional you are an enabler, or worse a neglectful parent. God wants you to change, and hes gonna restrict you from heaven if you don’t. That’s a condition dammit.
The Bible says it’s better to dwell on the corner of a rooftop than in a wide house with a brawling woman…and before anyone brings out the stones to stone me for misogyny…. I AM A WOMAN…..and decided to use this verse as a principle that can be applied to debt collectors!! It is better to live in a tiny house with tiny bills, than in a large house with your phones ringing off the hook with debt collectors picking your pockets for every red cent you owe them, whether it’s for a late car payment, or a utility bill or whatever!! Is it any wonder that God says owe no man anything!!??!??? The clatter and nattering of such people is enough to make the average person blow a gasket once in awhile, and wish it was lawful to grab the debt collector, tie him to a tree, pour honey on him, and sit back and watch the ants make a mindless nutcase out of him!!! (I am being very polite) And where is God? Listening to me rant…(and swear), and I gotta give Him an account someday!!! Life does suck sometimes!!!
Nobody wants their problems to be made light of. And God never does I have never hated God but I sure have been angry about some of the things He allowed to happen to me. I know however, that whatever He allows is best for me in the longrun and I know the difference between believing the truth and the way I “feel.” I might feel absolutey awful but I know the truth – the end is in my favor and as Paul said “this present light affliction cannot be compared to the future glory.”
Thank you
I can so relate to this article. I am standing in the middle of the fire and I even told my wife this very evening that I don’t care to talk to God or to even feel sorry for what I have said and/or done. I have dropped to a new low now and admitted to my wife recently that I wanted to die because I was so torn. I felt like God was waiting for me to do something and at the same time I was waiting for Him to do something. An endless circle always waiting for the other. I felt like I needed faith to get to God but in order to get faith I needed to pray and read but I needed faith to do that so it seemed to be a stalemate for me. The lower I get the more I have hatred for Him and the hatred turns to more hatred. I thought to myself that I needed to hurt God for allowing me to hurt and I figured that going to hell would hurt him and I have hated him enough to want to go there just to hurt him. I’m wondering if in there somewhere there is love for him. Hoping that there is.
Through repentance, honest repentance you find his love. Look for Martha Kilpatrick loving God series. I’ve come to find I have a buried hatred of God. And in these booklets, I feel she does have the key to loving God and being loved of God. It’s up to you to do the work of repentance. But there’s so much more to it so you’ll have to read the booklets for yourself. She has an amazing relationship with the Lord.
Well i really do hate God very much altogether since he never gave a very good single man like me a good wife and family that i should’ve had.
I came here looking for answers “Why do I hate God”. I know why. My husband secretly racked up 40k debt when I was pregnant and bedridden with HG, he maxed my credit cards, neglected me in my illness, we almost lost the house because he stopped making payments. (He was also manipulating me to work and the stress was so bad that I almost lost our son).
After our son was born, my husband wasn’t any better, and I had PPD. He ended up having an emotional affair that was about to go physical with a hoeworker – but I busted him July 4th 2017.
I was planning to go to college, but the affair just put me in a freeze. There is no sun or warmth for me. All I feel is the cold reality that my husband betrayed me again.
I have 3 kids by this man, and yet he treated me so poorly for the past decade I lost myself. I am lost. I turned from a very sinful life to one of a loving mother and a good wife…but this is what I get?
I’m starting to think that life isn’t worth anything except what you make it. God will slow you down and lead you on a path of “righteousness”. Is he even real?
The kicker is my husband (after going through the same thing many times and me finally about to leave him), decided to “turn a new leaf” and “change”. He’s prone to doing this and has kept me here for 10 years making me believe he will change. He will be a “godly man” for a few months, then go back.
The church says I should give him a final, final,final, final chance. I’m almost 30 and so tired of being treated like horse manure. My spirit is broken and I feel dead inside.
I just want to leave this pathetic farce of a marriage without incurring the “wrath of God” or whatever. How long would God have me suffer with this man?! How much is enough before a wife can just go without having guilt or satisfying the church? How much more can I take?
Right in this moment…I truly hate God. I hate the guilt I carry for wanting to leave this horrible and financially/mentally abusive marriage.
There is an author named Martha Kilpatrick. You can find her online. She has a booklet series called Loving God. And many other booklet series and actual books. She has an amazing relationship with the Lord. I personally have learned that I actually hate God. And God is beginning to show me through her writings that I love a lot of other things and people above Him. But only He can love me the way no one else can. Through repentance and honesty with Him you can experience His love and healing.
What I did was that I hate GOD so i could have the time to clean up my entire room to make it nice and organized and everyone now hates me but they don’t know why. But all I want to say is that I’m sorry GOD.
Right at this moment I am so furious and hateful, not exactly Towards God, but at why the F He has to be such a big mystery- Its like hes toying with me- I feel like vomiting I am so ugly inside- One more pure, rightiouse bible banger smiles and says oh Ill pray for you.. In jesuses name art thou be lest thy blah blah blah.. Get effn Real- Do these idiots really think thier that special? Your going to do me a favor oh holy one? Self rightiouse A holes! In all realness, If god sends me to hell my hatred would be an asset to the devil- I try to love god- I do! But i am Not going to go on an easter egg hunt, jump through hoops only to come up empty handed- then be told I didnt do it right- Well effn SHOW Me then!!! Man! Im a strong believer in the natural, Science, Physics, Chemistry- Its HERE! Right in front of me! It doesnt hide and giggle- I get straight forward answers wen I read, study, experiment— I KNOW for 110% Fact theres ppl reading this and thinking- this guys going to HELL! Not me! I Myself gave my life to jesus and god- I go to church— effn Rejects! You Are severely Dillusional! Oh holier than thou- How do you KNOE for a Fact YOUR not going to hell?? Seriouse- You DONT! If i go to hell as you say- I am going to LOVE the look on your face wen you get cast into the lake of fire right next to me!!! Im out- Again- Feel like puking- not feeling like praying, I feel like puking- at least I can see that- Its right in front of me .. effers- M out…….
Hi David. It is frustrating not being able to see Gods mystery. There is an expression says that God is laughing at us. It sounds like what you said, it’s like God’s toying with you. I think God is a scientist and he is doing an extremely lengthy experiment to get each and every one of us back to heaven. We are the test subjects. Im not saying He’s up to anything bad and theres also a saying that He’s all good. It’s like we are in the line of fire. Sometimes the last thing we need is someone saying they’ll pray for us. Maybe it’s best to not engage with biblebasher so you can figure stuff with God in your own time regarding the mystery. I’d just like to say too I’m sorry you feel ugly inside. Not sure if you meant that as sarcasm or that you feel that way but if you meant it, I hope ur feeling better since then. Wishing you well for 2020. Kind regards Donna.
I just don’t know how to think about God. God gave us Jesus and all that goes with him. He created this world and gave it life. God has done lots of good things for people in the past.
The key word is past. I look around at this messed up world and wonder why a loving all powerful God allows such evil to happen. Why does God let people starve to death? All the hardship that God can stop but doesn’t care enough to stop. Where is the love and caring? I want to help the homeless get off the streets permanently. Why has God not helped me with this? Isn’t helping the poor something that God commands us to do? God commands us to help people but refuses to give the resources necessary. So yes I do feel like I hate God at times. I have lived in poverty (by western standards) my whole life. Never had any chance at a decent life. I gave myself to God and Jesus 40+ years ago and haven’t seen any sign that God is with me. Just the infernal silence. Not a single prayer (as far as I can tell/see) has been answered. This is why people turn away from God, lack of anything from God and Jesus. Eternal life is all and good, but where is the hope for this life? So many people feel let down, disappointed, heartbroken, miserable with God and the broken promises. Jesus said whatever you ask in my name shall be given. Haven’t seen any evidence of that. This is just an example of why some people hate God. He promises amazing things but doesn’t deliver. Thanks for allowing me to say my piece, and God Bless You.
Hi James,
I liked the article and can relate. I would say hate might be the wrong word. Disappointment, heartbroken, down right pissed with God seem to be how I feel.
Let me explain my problem with God. Everywhere I look for answers, to my questions, I am keep hearing about seasons of trials and tribulations. Comments like my season of suffering lasted days, months, even a couple of years. Or told to wait a season or two for God to do His thing (God’s perfect timing). I will be honest about this, I feel I need to help homeless people get off the street. That is in accordance with what the Bible says is God’s will. I am now on year 52 of my season of trials and tribulations (poverty). 52 years of nothing but complete silence and unanswered prayers. I get angry and scream and yell at God for taking so long. God’s timing sucks. How long can a season last? I’ve also cried my heart out to God, pleading for this season to end. Nothing. I love God so much that I actually feel pain in my heart and soul when I wake each day to find that God has waisted another day without responding. Hate God, never. That’s even while God is tearing my heart out. Matthew 7: 7-8 is the unkept promise that I am waiting for. I ask but never receive.
Well enough about that. Sorry for the length of this reply. I tend to ramble on.
Thanks and may God Bless You, in Jesus name, Amen